It is important that you choose carefully who you allow to get close to you or choose to do business with. Connections have a strong affect on you spiritually! People are not just mere reflections of you. You need to choose friends who value what you have to offer and in which offer you something of value in return. As you advance further spiritually you will better sense intuitively which people are of positive value to relate to and which are best to avoid. You can only help others spiritually who are receptive to that help.

Some people are not good investments of your time and energy. Make sure you are a good investment of the time and energy of others. We exist on this Earth in order to develop and contribute something of value to its well being. This world has a lot of people who are messed up spiritually. You need not reflect their lack of spiritual development, but can make a strong effort to advance to a higher level spiritually yourself and help others who are receptive to do the same.

Cycles of abuse happen a lot on this Earth with those who have been abused tending to either abuse others in return or to abuse themselves. Most people do not take really good care of themselves when it come to diet and exercise. Lots of people are addicted to drugs, drug like foods,addictive type relationships and other things that harm their ability to get the most out of themselves physically and spiritually. Some spiritual/religious beliefs act like drugs in that they tune one out from the importance of making the most out of the reality we exist in now on this Earth! This reality we exist in is very challenging and we need to have spiritual beliefs/theories that help us handle these challenges and the pain that comes with them.

Pain, and spiritual growth go together. Past traumas(from past abuse) can be very painful to face and heal from. But, we can not end the cycle of abuse we are in, if we do not heal ourselves. Those that can handle the most pain can take on the toughest challenges inside and outside themselves and achieve the most. Effective spiritual/meditative training is very difficult and challenging. But, well worth the results that come from it. One can not do really challenging and effective spiritual training if ones spiritual theories/programming does not connect one enough to the very challenging reality one now exists in so as to motivate one to do it.

Here is a link to the type of meditative exercises I do, which also has a link at the end of it to all sorts of ideas on how to meditate based on my long history of experimenting and developing them:

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2016/10/04/meditative-walking-developing-a-stronger-spiritual-connection-with-the-physical/

The challenging times we live in can help us advance a lot further spiritually!

This world is not suppose to be easy, it is suppose to be challenging! It is up to us to make the world around us better/healthier! We are the front line spirits that can make a positive difference in thus spiritually backward world. This world will have its problems rooted in spiritual inadequacies, it is up to us all who exist here to heal these problems. The pain and struggle helps us to get stronger and more advanced spiritually provided we put in the effort required in order to be able to learn what lessons come from it

If the world was perfect(without problems to fix/solve)then it would be pointless and without any challenge to give us purpose and a reason to exist! Nothing exists without a purpose for its existence! Just because something has a purpose to exist does not mean it can not do a better job of serving that purpose or can not be improved upon.

The spiritual will always be challenging and difficult to figure out. This world we exist in its will always have its mysteries and challenges that can bring out the most spiritually in those who choose to push their spiritual limits! We always need spiritual puzzles to work on and challenge us to advance further spiritually! Today’s world is now going through extremely challenging times that provides the opportunity to advance to a much more advanced level spiritually in order to get through them and make the most of them!.

Here is a link to a lot  of other  links  to a lot of the innovative spiritual stuff I posted on the internet:  https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/links-to-my-spiritual-stuff-on-internet/

The value of providing good spiritual guidance and judgment to others as well as oneself

One has to judge in order to evaluate who to safely and effectively relate to, and how to advise people spiritually who desire your advise. It is true the universe will continue to function well even when you do not interfere with it. You do not need to provide what spiritual help/expertise/evaluations to everyone, since the universe or someone else will provide them with needed lessons that they can learn from anyway. But, those who value and utilize what valuable wisdom you or others have to offer can often avoid costlier mistakes and trauma and advance further spiritually. Many people get stuck in a cycle of abuse that is not very good for their physical/spiritual well being. Learning spiritual lessons can be very slow for some. Healing from past traumas can take a lot of work and time.

This world has so many serious problems that will lead to many crises in the future. Those who choose to advance further spiritually and take and give spiritual advise of value .will be in a better position to help others and themselves get through these trying times. Some people may not survive and may need to incarnate somewhere less challenging in the future. The universe will continue to exist and function as it should spiritually no matter what happens, but it functions even better for those who make the effort to understand it better and perform on a higher level in it spiritually! Even death does not provide an escape from this reality/universe and its consequences. That s why one must make the most of the challenging reality we exist in and not strive to escape from it in this life or beyond this life.

Past Traumas left unhealed are holding us back spiritually on this planet

Delusions and unhealed past traumas go together. Drugs and medications can help one live with these unhealed traumas, but often become addictive or dependent on! Traditional religions tend to act like drugs being based more on mythology and the delusions that support them, than by connecting people with hard reality! Our food industry creates refined adulterated foods that taste good, but do not focus on health creating impact. People then no longer can enjoy basic foods that are actually healthy! They are so use to indulging themselves that they are not hungry enough to appreciate real healthy foods! People are more interested in “feeling good” than facing more of reality spiritually and getting real positive results on this planet and the great sense of well being achieving something of great merit produces within oneself.

A lot of people think they can escape their unhealed traumas and the abuse associated with them after death, and have delusionary beliefs(after life theories) that support this! They actually think they can escape the “cycle of abuse” rather than having to do the hard work to heal/change it. I am all about training people in a way to heal them spiritually while helping them improve their spiritual theories/programming so that they can face the heavier dose of reality required in order to face and heal the strong emotional traumas that are holding them back spiritually!

The spiritual is powered by emotions, and we need to become a lot better at handling the whole spectrum of emotions in a positive way, rather than demonizing certain emotions that are not easy to handle. Life is meant to be challenging, and to inspire great achievements. We need to stop intoxicating ourselves with drugs and delusions and develop the spiritual maturity to actually transform the reality around us into something to be proud of!

This world better wake up spiritually soon!!!

I seem to get little response when I post my best blogs! I know what works since I definitely walk the walk! I know that all these people spiritually avoiding reality will eventually get a wake up call! Crisis happens when people are unwilling to do what it takes spiritually to deal with the demands of the problems of our times. Crises is happening right now in so many places in this world and this will get worst until we advance/mature in the necessary way spiritually! New spiritual theories need to be explored and tested. This world can not stay so stuck in the past spiritually!

Public can not HANDLE the REALITY-based SPIRITUAL TRUTH

I have posted over the course of about 12 years all kinds of spiritual information that has been an improvement over what is circulating spiritually on this planet, and I have gotten better at it over this period of time.  I have learned from debating my ideas on spiritual groups on the internet, and even done dream interpretation on Yahoo Answers to home my skills on reaching inwardly spiritually!  But, with all my effort the PUBLIC has not been reached by me!!! I am “differently abled” with limited visual memory and finer motor skills, making me ideal for me to take on the huge challenges I have in the spiritual!  I feel so many people who are neurologically different have their potential destroyed by a world forcing too much of  a “one size fits all” approach on all of us and failing to see and help develop their potential!

All sorts of abuse with the resultant trauma is very present in this spiritually backward world.  Healing ourselves and our planet is not going to be at all easy!!!   Facing more of the TRUTH is too difficult/PAINFUL for most people to handle.  Drugs, medications, delusional beliefs, processed addictive foods, along with extravagant spending on material things or thrill seeking activities help people escape from or to tune out reality and reality and being open to gaining more of the TRUTH!

We can actually train ourselves to be able to handle more of the truth, and actually get better at seeing all the valuable sides of the complicated issues of our time.  I have developed techniques to do this, as I would not have developed the spiritual theories or spiritual connection with our universe through my newly developed Astrology system if I had not developed and utilized really effective spiritual/meditative training program.  Hard WORK in the spiritual area does pay off in positive RESULTS!

FREE WILL does exist in this world spiritually!  An autocratic GOD that denies us this FREE WILL is an outdated concept!!  The hard reality we exist in and that challenges us to get the most out of ourselves can not be escaped from!  Our role as front line  spirits responsible for the state of the reality we exist in does not ever end!  No escape from this reality exists, so we must face it.  People like to believe that they can escape this reality by dying, but death is not an escape, since no real or permanent escape from this reality exists.  WE MUST FACE IT!!  Free will and its responsibilities in dealing with a challenging reality can not be escaped from!  Escapism needs to be eliminated from our planet spiritually to quite a degree if we are ever to make it a better place to exist on!

We just are not that competent spiritually here on this planet.  The way we treat ourselves and the less fortunate on this planet is a testimony to our spiritual incompetence here.  My spiritual theories and techniques are geared to improving peoples spiritual focus and competence so that we can make real progress at improving the conditions on this planet both physically and spiritually!  The spiritual underlies all of reality and must be dealt with effectively in order for the physical reality on the surface to improve.

We need badly to develop a lot more spiritual maturity on this planet so that we can handle the crises that will be coming in the future here,  It seems to require crises to happen in order for people to be awaking from the haze of a “drugged out: spiritual state and be willing to do the hard work required to find and face more of what is true spiritually.  Often one faces the choice of either facing more of the TRUTH or death.  But do not believe that death will allow you to escape reality, or that anything that acts like a drug will enable this either.

Please make an effort to read or listen to my stuff that is all over the internet!  There is enough out there that you can pick and choose what to focus your time on!  I need people to help get my ideas out, and also to team up with me to help develop even better spiritual theories and techniques.  Even my Astrology System that helps people better tune into their place in our physical universe can develop a lot further when other minds with other perspectives and abilities explore its possibilities!

Here is a link to a lot of my spiritual stuff on the internet!  Also put “astrogoodwin” into a search engine to find more!

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/links-to-my-spiritual-stuff-on-internet/

How I do my latest meditative run and walk!

Warning:  It takes a lot of time(years)to develop the ability to handle this spiritual-physical exercise in its most intense form.  The body needs to be given time to adjust as to frequency, duration, and intensity of any intense type exercise including this meditative type.  One should consult a Medical Doctor or Mental Health Professional  if you have any conditions that could make this exercise unsafe in any way.  This should be done at your own risk.  The spiritual has a really inner individual focus,  unlike science, and one has the accept responsibility for ones own actions and ones ability to sense intuitively what will work best for you.  Crisis always entails risk, and all effective spiritual exercise trains one to handle life at its most intense, so their will be risks, and one needs to do ones best to be vigilant so as to avoid serious trouble even when faces really tough challenges.  FEEL FREE TO SIMPLIFY OR BE CREATIVE WHEN USING THESE MEDITATIVE EXERCISE TECHNIQUES SO AS TO MAKE THEM MORE READILY FIT YOUR INDIVIDUAL NEEDS!

When doing meditative walking, I really focus on moving my arms back and forth and my shoulder up and down, and lifting my legs up and putting them down precisely with quick short steps and a sort of side to side movement. The arm and shoulder movements help me to get more blood to the brain so as to put more intensity(effort level) into the meditative exercise.. I do the rapid mouth breathing(in and out with each step)which help to create the meditative state which does slow the body down! I do shut my eyes periodically pretty tightly at times within the breathing cycle which is mostly focusing on 4 steps at a time. Shutting the eyes tightly can help relieve tension and alleviate ocular headaches that can result from the intensity of the exercise! When I shut my eyes I can connect)tune into more with the emotions that I tend to pick up from the outside world when I open my eyes! Also while doing these exercise I can focus on emotions(including anxiety) I have been affecting me in recent times and have a positive impact on them and those who are associated with them!  I  find the body reacts differently spiritually when the eyes are closed especially when in a meditative state. I also will intensely open and close my mouth without closing completely on the teeth! I do this in rhythm with my breathing! I find breathing through the mouth(not the nose) is required to make this work well. It is harder for me to do this with my mouth closed so I do it the way that works best. You try to focus to the point your mind becomes quiet(in the zone) at times. But, the mind will often have to do some thinking and figuring things in your life out while doing these meditative walks.

These meditative movements are  cat-like movements with a dance type quality to them!  When doing my meditative walk, I can quickly transform my energy in order to speed up or sprint when it is helpful to avoid certain situations or get across the street quickly and make walk signals in time.  The energy I run into can feed into these sprints!   The sprints are also good survival/fitness training!  This meditative techniques is extremely advanced and intense because I designed it over almost 4 decades of effort using a lot of experimentation and trial and error. It is unlike any technique out there!!!

When you get more advanced in these meditative walking exercises you can alternate to styles! First you do about 4 steps while crouching with legs bent(cat-like)to increase tension with help one do quicker more intense leg movements and then do the next 4 steps more upright with the focus more on the vigorous shoulder/arm movement so as to allow the legs to recover so you can be ready to do the cycle over again! You get in a rhythm with the focus sort of going up and down with the alternating focus. You will need to be creative and figure out what works best for you! You can try to close your eyes as often as you can in rhythm with your breathing, but that you can safely do based on the dangers the terrain and situations presents themselves. You always have to do what you have a lot of confidence you can safely get away with. You always have to be aware and deal with any potential dangers that could result in harm to ones wellbeing. Being super vigilant in a meditative walking state is required to benefit the most from it. As one tunes in better spiritually you will gain more awareness on how to stay vigilant spiritually in a very precarious world.

When doing a meditative running you use a similar technique as when meditative walking but with more speed while breathing in with one step and out with the next and with more of a running techniques. You can also use the same technique of the alternating styles mentioned above for meditative walking, but while running. But meditative walking can be very similar to running because of the rhythm to the movement although done slower.  

Start out with short distances! The body does need time to adjust and overdoing it when you are not ready can lead to injury, fatigue, and burn out! I am now only doing a mile meditative run followed by a mile meditative walk in the morning and another mile meditative walk later in the day.  I do stationary type meditation when ever I feel I need them and for as long as I feel I need to!  I focus more on quality than quality!

4/30/19  I am focusing more on side to side movement and using my toes more to lift my feet to enhance the speed of that movement.  I am also focusing on breathing in and out more vigorously with the intense  jaw movement helping me do this.  5/10/19  I am making an effort to spread my feet farther apart which helps with balance and ability to do quicker steps with added quicker side to side movement.  Also opening and closing my hand with each step which is a technique I have used previously.  focusing on ones toes and hands(peripheral body parts)  helps one get more of a whole body meditative focus.  The focus on the toes and foot movements also help one stay grounded.  Meditative walking is sort of like dance and does help you gain more control of ones body which is helpful in many athletic pursuits and to move well when in a crises situation.

7/18/19:  I have stopped doing my meditative runs, although I do sprint at times when crossing intersections and at other times to help me navigate quickly pass certain spiritual energies on the mean streets of Las Vegas!   I am now doing my meditative walks a little slower and focusing more on the intensity of my breathing. I am on a new phase since I do not need to focus so hard on spiritual theory development as my astrology system is working really well! I need to just rely heavily on my current spiritual theories and programming! I will always be open to improving my spiritual theories, but need to get out of the extreme spiritual state that separates me from others in this spiritually backward world. The spiritual truth has a lot of power, which so many people do not seem to understand! Spiritual theories that work are more important than any spiritual personalities from the past. This challenging physical world is what can really test how well ones spiritual theories/programming really works. We need spiritual theories that help us better focus within this reality and that are clear enough to readily apply! We have challenging times ahead of us all on this Earth and we badly need a more rational/sane spiritual approach in order to gain the focus required to handle them effectively!

8/24/19  I now do quite a few meditative walks a day!  I have done up tp 14 miles(once) with 7 two mile sessions!  I use side to side motion with short quick steps trying to move my shoulder up and down as quickly as I can which helps quicken the steps.  I will squat s little to increase tension and help increase how many steps I do!  I do breath in and out with each step so the more steps the faster I must breath in and out!   If I get any pains I try to increase how hard I breath.  I can stop at “don’t walk” signs and then(while waiting) do a standing meditation focusing on breathing hard and moving my shoulders rapidly alternately up and down,  while bending my knee and connecting with the stillness around me.  When the opportunity arises I can mix a few short intense sprints in(I am conditioned to handle these)!  I do my meditative training on the mean streets of Vegas(with some crazy people to deal with) and have to deal with traffic too and will race across intersections or to avoid danger when I feel like it will work well!  I will feed off the energy around me.  I feel safe because I know my body is conditioned to handle almost anything!

11/15/19  I now jerk my shoulder up intensely with each rapid short step! This intense shoulder action creates more side to side motion helping me land these quick precise steps!  I try to move with the type of attention to stepping in a way that helps me focus on every sound in my environment like my survival depended on me to do so.  I continue to use the other features to the technique mentioned in the last paragraph/update! The meditative exercise is an exercise that is suppose to make one more spiritually sensitive in a way that will help one to pick up on anything psychically that is of the most vital importance to whatever task of real importance that one is trying to achieve.   We have so many serious problems in this world that impact people personally that need to be adequately dealt with!  Also we have so many psychological/spiritual problems within the individuals on this planet that also need people extremely well trained spiritually to help them deal with them!  Here is a link to my blog post that deal with these  latest changes in my meditative walking techniques in more detail!   https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2019/11/15/my-dislocated-shoulder-self-rehabilatation-and-its-role-in-developing-my-very-advanced-meditative-techniques/

1/3/20  On  DEC 20th 2019, I started running again( 3 miles every day).   I recently had the flu, but did not let that stop me! My “neurologically different” body does best when I push the edge! I would not have survived as long as I have in this world which is very hostile toward me, if I did not use my extreme approach guided by my well trained intuition! My spiritual mindset has to be better than others! Most people in this world have no idea how much further they could evolve spiritually and are just passively guided by the spiritual fads of the times with out much deep thinking about how much this limits their potential!  When I run, I swing my arms and shoulders as vigorously as possible which makes the run more “meditative”, difficult and intense!

1/17/20 Started meditative running twice a day: 3 miles each time!  I have changed my run into a meditative exercise that is more intense than my meditative walks!  I use a similar technique with the intense arm and shoulder movement and side to side movement!  I breath really hard  in with one step and out with the next!  I sort of skim along with sort of a dance type movement!  I really will need to demonstrate this on video when the opportunity arises!

2/8/20  When I meditatively run I now have to focus my intensity mostly on my shoulder movement and side to side movement and ignore how fast I am going! It is a slow run, but gets the heart rate up with its intensity! It is a little like dance with quick steps and intense breathing(breathing in with one step and out with the next)! The focus needs to be on the back of the neck(near survival/reptilian part of brain) and the area between the eyes. I do close my eyes at times in each 6 to 8 step cycle when the surface and traffic is safe! Minor injuries have forced me to avoid focusing overly on forward movement!  I now mostly do meditative runs, replacing most of my meditative walking!

It takes a long time to get good at this meditative movement exercise, but I have trained hard a lot of ways in the past including Marathons which I have run two official ones back in early 2006, so I knew about training hard from my past experiences, but spiritual training is a lot rougher, since training oneself extremely hard emotionally(spiritually) requires this training in order to condition the body to handle and heal the intense traumas that often comes with living in a really challenging physical world.  Emotions power the spiritual and one must overcome(heal) ones emotional and physical traumas in order to become more effective spiritually!  So many people are negatively triggered(upset) when certain sensitive subjects come up!  This world is full of conditions that can be abusive to ones emotional wellbeing and leave emotional scars!

In order to positively handle all of the spectrum of emotions and thus gain the spiritual balance and grounding required to get the most out of oneself, one must develop the overall emotional strength and will power  needed to direct ones desires in a way that one can be in the kind of shape(emotionally and physically) to take on the really intense problems that this modern world is so full of!  One spiritual programming/theories must be reality based enough to be able to handle the hard dose of reality(difficulty) that this type of training involves.  So many spiritual beliefs are escapist in nature and prevent people from handling life at it most difficult really well spiritually!  That is why this world is so backward spiritually.  Improved spiritual training required one improves ones spiritual theories and not be locked into the beliefs of the past!


Here is a link to my previous blog on this subject:

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2016/10/04/meditative-walking-developing-a-stronger-spiritual-connection-with-the-physical/

A tougher more mature type of spirituality needed in these trying times

I need to stay away from the type of spirituality that acts like a comforting drug that enable people to avoid facing the hard reality of the type of challenging world we now live in! The idea that all spiritual “paths” are okay does not give enough credit to those who are really working extremely hard to improve spiritually so as to be able to actually make a real positive difference in this world. So many people have gotten soft spiritually and want to be “enabled” to stay soft and indulging in a fantasy type drug like type of spirituality that helps makes them feel good without them having to do the extremely hard spiritual work required to take on the intense challenges of our times. A lot of the “new age” type spirituality is this way.

My hard hitting spiritual approach guided by spiritual theories that support it just does not appeal to those that are too addicted to a “feel good” type of spiritual approach rather than focusing on one that is strong enough to be effective in our challenging times. Actually achieving constructive results in the real world does give one a positive feeling that is so much stronger and valuable than just some “feel good” drug like spiritual high! Hard spiritual energy is scary, but needed if we are ever going to properly address the really serious problems of the highly advanced technological age we exist in. Hard time are coming which will require a lot more spiritual maturity to be developed by the inhabitants existing on this spiritually backward planet to handle it!

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2017/10/09/links-to-my-spiritual-stuff-on-internet/

Why people are so closed minded to improving on their spiritual beliefs!

Spiritual/religious brainwashing keeps people from being receptive to better, more practical spiritual theories! One spiritual programming is deeply implanted and does not change without a lot of effort! Spiritual trauma tends to hold one back from advancing further spiritually. Effective meditative exercises along with a better diet can help one heal past traumas in ones life so that one can more readily improve one spiritual programming! Growing spiritually is not easy since facing more of the truth is really challenging and will often force one to face past traumas and the beliefs that help support them! Fantasy/delusional beliefs act like drugs that help one to tune out reality to quite a degree. People often take drugs to help them avoid past traumas and maintain the distorted spiritual energy that comes with inadequate spiritual beliefs systems. Being a spiritual pioneer does run into its obstacles on this spiritually backward planet!!

The all important cycles within life and beyond life

The life of the spirit is cyclical with each new cycle being affected by how well we handled the last cycle. The type of reality we exist in will continue providing us with the same challenges and benefits. One needs to focus on making the most of the current very challenging/stimulating reality we exist in, since we will continue to face more of the same within this life and beyond this life. The belief in the spiritual theory of our continuous existence in a similar reality helps us to put all of our focus on performing well in it, since we will only face more of it in the future. If we work hard to perform well in one cycle in this life, what value we gain will help us in the next cycle. The same will be true as we cycle from one life to the next. Inventing a different type of reality that is fantasy like after we die, will weaken our ability to put all of our energy into the reality we exist in right now which is the one that counts the most.

Developing a new astrology system

An astrology system developed in an age before the science existed to truly understand the Universe and the huge number of Galaxies that existed, the black hole that is in the center of our Galaxy, our nearest Star, and all the outer planets is going to be very limited in its effectiveness.  It will work to quite a degree due to the power of belief and so much leeway in interpretation due to so many ways of interpreting it.   We tend to get stuck in the past on this spiritually backward planet and stuck on mythology that is not backed up enough by how effective it works.

I was born neurologically different with limited visual memory and finer motor skills.  A lot of people are born neurologically different with some more “unique” than others, and often their talents are wasted on a planet that gets too much into an overly simplistic one size fits all approach toward its inhabitants  with “locked in religious/spiritual beliefs and modern science adding to this.   Ego plays a strong role in keeping most people from doing the really hard work required to advance in their spiritual sensitivity toward themselves and others especially those who do not fit in very well!  A lot of “genius” is thus wasted on this planet.  A mythology around the word “genius” has developed that limits the number of people who can fit into this category and making it a category people tend to be afraid to strive for.

Early in my life I became very heavily dependent  on my spirit and the spiritual to guide me and lost a lot of my trust in others in this world to be that helpful to me in times of crisis in my life.  Although people have tended to help me with out me asking. I lost a lot of my faith in the level of expertise existing on this planet due to how inept these experts were in understanding the very intense  situation I was facing in my life adjusting to a world that was so insensitive to those with the limitations and special abilities people who are “neurologically different” or “differenty abled” often possess.

My focus on dependence on myself spiritually even led to me not even letting someone  know(who saw the tears in my eyes) that I didn’t have enough money for a bus to get home from High School in Manchester NH to end of the bus line in Goffstown NH.  My mother I though was suppose to pick me up, but didn’t!  So I took the Bus using what money I had, but did not pay the rest of the money when due upon getting off the bus.  The bus driver probably was affected by the spiritual state I was in so did not appear to notice my not paying.

I developed an interest in the occult and various alternative views of the spiritual at an early age and stopped attending Catholic Church in my early teens.  I did still go to a Catholic High School even though I was no longer a believer.  I never really was that strong a believe when younger because of some  my early experiences with the Church that let me know they did not have their act together spiritually enough to treat me well enough.

I first started with more traditional Astrology, reading a bunch of charts starting around 1976(born Oct 1951).  I quickly became creative and experimented with many variations still holding on to the traditional.  My intuition helped me a lot in my readings, but I felt I relied to much on my intuition to correct the inadequacies of the astrology system I was using.  In the later part 1992 after years of playing with some components of the traditional astrology system and experimenting with new meditative walking and other techniques I had developed, I tried to connect with the media and reach them with my spiritual ideas and also affect the politics of this election year.  The pressure of doing this(with the negative spiritual reactions that cam back my way) was too much for me physically/emotionally resulting in my heart rhythm messing up.  I had that happen before as a result of the extreme exercises I would do in running and walking swinging heavy dumbbell hand weights.  I used meditative breathing to take care of that heart rhythm problem which worked well at the times required.  But, when I tried it under the stress in I faced in late 1992, I had to keep doing it continuously and could not stop in order to sleep.  When I finally fell asleep when extremely sleep deprived while still fighting to keep up the meditative breathing, I had a near death experience which required all the effort I could muster to come back from.  I have a blog on this experience.  This experience and the psychological/spiritual states it put me in led to me reevaluating all of my spiritual  beliefs and to take a completely fresh approach to m astrology system, and no longer trusting any of the mythology based ideas I still had programmed into me.  I became an awful  lot more logic based(rational) in my spiritual approach from then on.

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2015/07/26/my-astrology-system-formula-2/

https://astrogoodwin.wordpress.com/2015/01/03/2-near-death-experiences-in-1992-forced-me-to-improve-further-on-my-spiritual-beliefs-and-training-techniques/